Wednesday, January 26, 2011

A Baby Story: Month Three & The Great Relief

As I recall the first 3 weeks of this month, the words that come directly to mind are sick, cranky and tired. My husband would probably add especially to that cranky. At one point he just looked at me and asked if he was being insensitive because he was so confused by some of my reactions to the simplest of things. I feel for him, I know I've been a bit weird lately and even I feel a bit taken back by myself at times. However, relief seems to have come. Finally!

My sickness is slowly fading.
My energy is returning.
And best of all... my cranky-tude seems to be tuning itself down a notch or two.

I've discovered that there are certain foods just not suitable for my pregnant belly (no more Mexican, Chinese, hot sauce or french fries *sigh*) and that if my body says to get up, it's best just to get up rather than fighting to go back to sleep.

Best of all this month we were given an ultrasound date for discovering the sex of the baby (APRIL 6th!!). I think I've settled on wanting a girl because of how much it would mean to my grandmother to have a little one named after her and her sister (who is actually my real great-grandmother). Just don't tell my husband that I've changed my mind. A boy will be absolutely fine too.

Six months seems so far away but I'm sure it will go by faster than I can imagine. In the meantime I'm going to have to go shopping soon because my jeans will no longer button and we're planning a 'babymoon' for this March. Hopefully somewhere warm, with sand. (Did I hear someone say a cruise?) Part of me is sad to know that this will be our last big vacation just the two of us and probably the only one for awhile. But another part of me is excited to show our child all of the amazing things out in the world that I didn't get to see growing up.

In other news, my brother comes home from Korea on February 10th for two weeks before heading to Texas where he will be stationed until he receives a ship date. I'm so stinkin' excited that it's ridiculous. We finally found some sort of workable schedule so that we get to talk more now & let me tell you, the boy cracks me up. He keeps me going some days and as weird as it sounds, I believe we all have many soul mates and he is one of mine. I'll be sad when he leaves again but at least he'll be in the country this time.

Clearly I had a lot on my mind today. My second trimester is right around the corner and I'm looking forward to seeing how my thoughts and my body and my life progresses and changes.

Sunday, January 02, 2011

A Baby Story: Month One & Two

Two entire months of pregnancy have come and gone faster than I could have ever imagined. It's hard to believe that we found out that we were expecting a little miracle an entire month ago although all of the pregnancy symptoms have me more than convinced that there's a little one there! It's been a pretty rough start but I feel as if things have started to calm down. Hopefully within the next month all of this horrible sickness will have gone away too!

It's hard to grasp how much our lives are going to change in a few short months. It must be the nesting instinct within me, but all I can think of is preparations. I've been going through old clothes and tubs and getting rid of things that I never thought I'd get rid of to make room for baby. I've been cleaning corners and closets and scrubbing floors and windows. I know it's early but I just feel the need to...well, prepare.

We already have an overabundance of toys and clothes that have been given to us that I need to go through and everyone seems extremely convinced that we're going to be great parents. I on the other hand am pretty anxious, not having my own mother in my life and knowing that my grandmother is an hour away and really in no shape to help. I hope that I don't become overwhelmed in the coming months with 'what-ifs' and just trust that all of my previous experience with other people's babies will carry on to my own.

Our first ultrasound experience was truly amazing and we'll get to see our little peanut again here in a couple of weeks. I'm sure he or she will look much more like a baby this time! In the meantime I'm hoping that all of the exhaustion and morning sickness will start to fade, I'm sick 90% of the day and it really, really sucks. I wouldn't trade it for anything though, knowing that it's caused by our precious little one!