Monday, April 06, 2015

From Here

I'm at a crossroads in life and I'm unsure of where to go from here. I posted awhile back mentioning the fact that Jeremy and I were struggling, and things have only gotten worse. I'm miserable in my own mind on a daily basis and at this point I'm not sure if it's actual marital issues or just a deep depression on my part. I don't know what depression looks like, feel like, because depression does not fit well on me...

The problem is that I don't have advice to take and the advice I do receive is all one-sided and pointed in the same direction: leave your husband.

But my husband is not a bad guy, nor has he done anything wrong and although I am so very unhappy right now, I just can't seem to justify giving up and leaving.

I considered a break. Leaving for a week, splitting our time with Henry, and then regrouping together to see if it helped clear our minds. I was going to leave today...and I even pulled out the suitcases, but will it help? It feels an awful lot like failure.

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