Oh, hey! It's been a minute, I suppose.
Life is busier than ever, and yet, I often still find the itch to write. I have files upon files floating around on my computer of documents consisting of nothing more than rambling words, unedited and unseen stories that maybe one day I'll share with the world.
Maybe.
The last couple years have been amongst some of the hardest of my life, which is saying something, really.
Losing my grandmother wrecked me. Nearly losing my husband destroyed me. Taking over a business exhausted me.
How I did all three at the exact same time is still mind-boggling to me. Throw in my car breaking down numerous times in the middle of winter hours from home, managing our son and his schedule when he's missing days and weeks of school, my husband's nearly year recovery, our home and animals, our employees, my grandmother's estate and funeral and just LIFE in general - yeah, mind boggling is the only way I can describe it.
BUT
I did it. I might be a little super-human, honestly. But I did it. And I did it alone.
No one showed up for me. No one. I guess that's a little eye opening, isn't it?
I will never doubt my self-worth again. I will never find myself shoved into a box that I barely fit into in order to take up less space in whatever room I may be in. I will never settle for less because I think I might not have earned it. Damnit, I earned it.
If my overall life has not been enough of a proof, the neglect, abuse and overall trauma that I have experienced: the fact that I have overcome SO MUCH in the last few years is enough alone.
I am so strong and competent and able. I am hard-working and can achieve anything I set my mind to. What I have to say and my opinions matter. Where I've been and the story I have to tell is important.
I have evolved and my life will reflect my evolution from this moment on.
