It's that happy-g0-lucky-I-finally-feel-back-into-the-swing-of-things-and-can-breath-again feeling.
I feel good today. I've felt good a lot lately, minus a few huge bumps in the road that left me feeling horrible...but good, lately. But today I feel really good. Today I finally found myself browsing through flickr with that wonder and awe and excitement. I finally found myself making dinner with a smile and snapping a few photos with contentment. I finally felt like myself. It's been awhile.
I've realized a lot about myself in the last few weeks. I've realized that I can slip into a silent and masked depression with ease and no one around me, not my husband or my friends or my family can even see it. I've realized that I'm good at keeping secrets and feelings locked somewhere deep inside where no one but myself can touch them. I've realized that for some odd reason, I have an itching to do the dishes every single night after dinner. Which is odd, I hate dishes. I've also realized that I live a super blessed life and that although it may be hard at times, it's all part of some wonderful ball of blessed amazingness that I am so lucky to be part of.
Enough said, right?
P.S. - Mason lost a tooth today. I'm such a proud puppy parent, I'm doomed when I have actually children. I can't imagine what love that is...