She told me on a Monday...something that I should not share here. She told me what it was that will eventually take her from me, why she is choosing not to persue any medical attention and the reason why I will ultimately have to face the challenge of life without her in it.
I am not ready for this. I am not strong enough to deal with losing her. I just cannot do it.
I have had the worst of days, one of those days where all you do is cry. One of those days when you empty yourself of tears only to cry dry ones.
I am scared. I am broken and I want to make it all go away. But I can't...and I can't even explain it. Because she does not want the world to know...and I must respect that.