Never Prepared

I learned this weekend that there is no possible way for me as a woman and a mother to prepare to leave my child behind. I thought that because I had told myself over and over that it was just a few hours and I would enjoy being away from the house, it wouldn't be nearly as upsetting to return to work. I was very wrong. I sobbed the entire day and then the entire drive there...but I survived. I am exhausted; both mentally and physically...but I survived. I know it will get easier and I'm going to hang on to that thought, but for now I'm just enjoying being next to my baby boy every minute that I can.