I feel the need to apologize but I'm not going to. I guess usually I would keep my hard days to myself but lately I've decided that that just can't be healthy and I've kind of just stopped. More like cold turkey just stopped really. I think my husband has noticed too. It's just not fair to be the only one who carried all the things inside. Whether good things or bad things, I am human and I have a right to share them. Plus, the inside can only carry so much until it bubbles up and over the outside and while sometimes that can be a good thing, more times than not, it's more of a bad things. And I deserve more than that. We all do.
The Way Things Are:
I'm exhausted. I don't even know why I'm up right now. I should have gone to bed at least two hours ago. Henry is still not feeling well and he has a horrible time sleeping which means that he wakes up often and wants me to hold him. I'm super, super busy this week, this month really. I have several bigger photo sessions coming up, a birthday party to plan and then Halloween. We won't even talk about November and December. Umm...where the heck does the time go??
Why It's Okay:
It's okay. It's okay because my little boy needs me and I love being here for him when he doesn't feel well. I love knowing that he wants ME...no one else. Plus sleep will be plentiful on later days. Life is just too short to be so concerned about a couple of nights of sleep. Being busy is okay too. It's a good thing. Photo sessions will bring much needed extra Christmas money and why in the world would I be upset about celebrating my birthday?? Even if the party is for my husband. (Who is turning 30!! Bahaha...old man alert!) I honestly cannot wait until Halloween this year. I think Henry is going to have a wonderful time and I can't wait to show off his costume. I absolutely love this time of year. I guess I just need to suck up all the negativity and focus on the positives. There are so many good things, soooo, so many. Sometimes it just gets lost in the here and now.