Security & Trust

Do you ever have those 'ah-ha' moments where suddenly something, out of no where, makes a whole bunch of sense? Moments where you sit back and smile and say, "God, I see what you did there. I get it...and thank you."? I had one of those moments on Sunday as I was driving to work. I've been thinking a lot about my relationship with my husband and how I can be a better wife for him. My prayer has been that God would show me my flaws, how I can improve them and to enlighten me as to why my husband and I work so well together. And like God always does, He pulled through and showed me a major factor to our marriage that I had really been taking granted.

Before I met my husband, I was not a secure person. I often questioned the intentions of my boyfriends, friends and even my family. I had seen enough in my life to know that it was easy to lie and even easier to hurt someone, especially when their intentions had started out good. But something about Jeremy was different; I trusted his word to a fault, I never doubted him and I never doubted his intentions.

I still don't.

God showed this to me on Sunday. He placed this little tid-bit of information in front of me and said, "Look. I gave you someone you could trust, someone who you would never doubt." Then He asked me some tough questions: "Did you forget? Isn't this what you asked for?"

And it was...and I had forgotten. I hadn't forgotten that this is what I had prayed for, but I had forgotten the feelings growing up and dating of constant heart-break and mistrust. I had forgotten the many times that I began to trust just to have those feelings ripped from beneath me. I had forgotten the lies and the cheating and the constant reminder that I felt alone in the world.

What God gave me when He gave me my husband was like the missing piece of a puzzle that I had been searching for all of my life. He gave me security. He gave me someone whom I know I will never have to doubt. That's a big deal these days when all you hear about is infidelity, lying between spouses and complete mistrust. I was blessed enough to find someone who will always be truthful and loyal to me and I had taken that for granted for almost the entirety of our relationship.

It's easy to see the flaws in someone when that's all that you're looking for. But when you start to realize the good traits that someone possesses, you'll usually find that you're blessed beyond measures. Praise God for answered prayers... and husbands like mine. ♥

Bucket List Tuesdays

It's Tuesday which means it's time to link-up with me and tell me one thing that's on your bucket list and one thing that you've been blessed enough to cross off!

On The List:

I'd love to be a professional photographer. And by professional, I mean someone who is absolutely persistent in their quality of work, someone who is confident in what they're doing and someone who is respected in their field of work. I'm working on it. I have a small client base, but it's a client base. I am confident when it comes to some sessions and a nervous willy when it comes to others. My equipment however is anything but professional. I still use the original camera that Jeremy surprised me with almost four years ago and it was the cheapest model (clearanced from the year before) that we could buy. But, it was all that we could afford and as much as I'd like to go out and just buy a new camera - it's not that easy. Cameras are expensive and considering the four or five lenses I have for this one, I'll stick with it as long as it will be useful to me.

Crossed Off:

I know I've only been married for four years. I know that my marriage could potentially crash and burn at any time or it could blossom into something even more precious than what it is right now. But no matter what happens, and no matter what the future brings, the marriage that I have now and have had for the past four years has been one of the most beautiful parts of my entire life.

Not to mention, we have this little boy - and really, does it get any more beautiful than that?