We can all get frustrated with waiting for that next 'big' thing. When we're younger, we can't wait to turn 16, then 18. We can't wait to start driving, move out...get married. We can't wait to start a family, buy a home, get the big promotion we've worked so hard for. In all this rushing to get to the next 'big' thing, we can often forget that God has a plan for our lives and our plans do not always coincide with His.
We will cry out, pray, complain, wish, dream and just plain out feel fed-up when what we think should be happening just isn't. We are truly creatures of want; constantly wanting something more and more, no matter how blessed we are!
I am more than guilty of being a creature of want. Instead of praising God for what I have, I find myself often asking him 'why not now?' when it comes to what I THINK should be my next 'big' thing.
I have made it very known that Jeremy and I are trying to conceive and grow our little family from three to four. As I was making the hour drive home from my weekly trip to see my grandmother yesterday, Henry was snoring in the backseat and the radio was tuned to my favorite station, but my mind was elsewhere - talking to God. (God and I, we hang out in the car. I don't know why but that is OUR place!) I used to think that people were crazy when they would say 'God spoke to me..' and go into detail about what He would say. I always felt like God spoke to the heart and while you could have a feeling as to what He was saying, you'd never actually be able to cipher his exact words out of those feelings. So untrue. God can speak to you and while you may not hear an audible voice, it's very clear as to what He's saying.
So God and I were having a little chat and being the creature of want that I am, I was asking Him why it seemed like everyone else was getting pregnant but I wasn't. (Yeah, comparisons...already making a mistake there, right?) And as I was pouring my heart out about how badly I wanted another baby, I looked up and saw my sleeping beauty in the rear-view mirror and just stopped. And God said, "look at what you already have...quit working so hard towards the next and cherish this one for a little while longer" and I couldn't say another word. Thanks Father, thanks for putting me back in my place...
If we would quit focusing on the next big thing, quit wishing for more, dreaming for more...and focus on what God has given us already, we would be in a world of better shape. Faith includes faith in His timing, which is perfect timing. His ultimate plans are to grow us for Him and to Him and we must trust that His plans and His timing are what we need.
Today I'm praying to have patience and faith to trust God's timing. Completely.