It's hard to stand back sometimes and really take a good look at yourself. As someone who has always been overweight, I hate photos of myself, especially full body photos. The only thing I ever see is my fat legs, big stomach, double chin, etc...
When I see photos of myself, even after I've lost weight, I never see myself different. I still feel like the only things anyone will see is how fat I am. It's horrible to live that way, and I'm truly, TRULY trying to change it.
So I figured in all my vulnerability, I would post this for all of you to see. The first photo was taken in October, at the heaviest I've probably ever been in my entire life. The second photo is from our vacation, and 20 pounds lighter than the first.
I'm trying to see the difference - the small changes. But it's hard. I can see the difference in Jeremy, but myself? I'm still just not happy.
Today I'm promising myself to take more full-body shots. To appreciate who I am now so I can appreciate myself even further as I inch my way closer to my goals. It's not that I hate myself or find myself ugly, or unlovable, or any of those kind of things, I just wish I were more comfortable in my own skin.
This is my way of getting even closer to being there.