Friday, April 26, 2013

Naked


It's hard to stand back sometimes and really take a good look at yourself. As someone who has always been overweight, I hate photos of myself, especially full body photos. The only thing I ever see is my fat legs, big stomach, double chin, etc...

When I see photos of myself, even after I've lost weight, I never see myself different. I still feel like the only things anyone will see is how fat I am. It's horrible to live that way, and I'm truly, TRULY trying to change it.

So I figured in all my vulnerability, I would post this for all of you to see. The first photo was taken in October, at the heaviest I've probably ever been in my entire life. The second photo is from our vacation, and 20 pounds lighter than the first.

I'm trying to see the difference - the small changes. But it's hard. I can see the difference in Jeremy, but myself? I'm still just not happy.

Today I'm promising myself to take more full-body shots. To appreciate who I am now so I can appreciate myself even further as I inch my way closer to my goals. It's not that I hate myself or find myself ugly, or unlovable, or any of those kind of things, I just wish I were more comfortable in my own skin.

This is my way of getting even closer to being there.

8 comments:

  1. I can see a difference, you are doing amazing. :) Keep on going friend!

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  2. There is a difference, and it is noticeable!
    Try not to be so hard on yourself. You're kicking butt on this journey!

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  3. I can totally tell a difference. You are doing a great job and you should be so very proud of yourself. But always remember, you are a child of God and you are beautiful no matter what.

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  4. I can totally tell a difference. You are doing a great job and you should be so very proud of yourself. But always remember, you are a child of God and you are beautiful no matter what.

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  5. I can tell a difference. You're beautiful, and only getting more beautiful. Keep up the good work!

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  6. No, I can totally see a difference in both of you. Jeremy, yes, maybe a bit more but that's guys in general! Henry is a lucky little guy to have such an awesomely dedicated momma!

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  7. I think that's a wonderful goal. After 23 years, I have finally come to like my own appearance as well. It's hard, no matter who you are, no matter what you don't like about yourself. But courage, like you have, is the first step to success.
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  8. I can definitely see the difference! I know what you mean about not being able to see it--I have to remind myself that I biggest critic is me.

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You don't know just how lovely you are...thank you.