I Came Pretty Close

"I always wanted to invent something that would move around and make funny noises and would change the world as we know it and I forgot all about that until we had kids and now I see I came pretty close.”

-Story People

Today I feel sorry for people who say they never want children. Yeah, I know...it's their choice and well, if they don't want them they probably shouldn't have them. Yadda, yadda...I've heard it all before.

There is just something so life-changing and special about having your own children. They complete you in a way that the rest of the world cannot imagine and I think it's true for all parents, yours is better than theirs and well, when it comes to how perfect they are, yours are perfect. More than perfect even. And it's true. They're perfect for you. They came from you and they are part of you. Nothing can ever change that and given the choice, you'd kill someone before you'd let them change that.

At least I would.

I am not ignorant. I know there are people who really should not have children. There are people who have children and shouldn't have had them. There are to many suffering children in our world and my heart breaks for them. I can't imagine not giving my son everything that I have and everything that I am. He deserves that from me. He's that special to me and my main goal in life is to make sure he knows it.

I suppose I just have a hard time understanding having so much love to give but having no one to give it to. Eventually it would just swell up inside and burst into a million pieces. I don't want to waste the love that I've been given. I want to find ways everyday to share it and give it and hopefully brighten my little piece of the world with it.

Perhaps I'm crazy, I'm okay with that. I just know that every time someone looks me in the eye and says 'I never want to have kids' it kinda twists my heart a little inside. They're missing out on one of life's little miracles and well honestly, it's a huge one to miss.

Amber and Anna

I had the pleasure of photographing my old neighbor and her little girl today. I did this session for free because Amber (the little girl) is going into surgery on Monday for a brain tumor. The odds aren't really with her on this so I'm asking anyone who reads this to say a little prayer for her and her family.

15 Down

I've been using MFP for about a month now and I've lost almost 15 pounds.

Yup, I'm pretty proud.

That means I've lost 20 pounds so far this year, averaging about 10 pounds a month.

That's awesome work and let me tell you, I've worked for it!

My goal right now is to lost another 10 pounds by the end of March.

I'm pretty sure I can do it. =)

Seven Months

A 7 months old Henry...

...has two front teeth that can visibly be seen every time he smiles.

...talks and screams and giggles and is very, very loud (pretty much all of the time).

...sits up on his own and absolutely hates laying down.

...is on the move and (almost) crawling both forward and backwards.

...favorite toys are his crawling ball, his music board and his books.

...eats like a horse.

...knows his name.

...knows the word 'no' and finds it funny.

...is still very attached to his Mama.

...laughs at just about everything but especially the dog.

...loves playing peek-a-boo.

...steals every remote and cell phone that's within reach.

...grabs at everything.

...rides in the shopping cart, his big boy car seat and the stroller with no issues at all.

...keeps changing and growing right before our eyes so quickly that we can hardly stand it.

Locks of Love

Today my bestest and I cut and donated our hair to Locks of Love.

Here is my before picture!

And here I am after!

If you've ever considered donating your hair, I would highly recommend it. You have a sense of accomplishment knowing that someone is going to be so happy to have this hair that you can so easily grow back out. I cut off a total of 15 inches. That's a lot of hair! If you want to know the truth, I'm going to miss it from time to time but I don't regret it a bit. Besides, the best way to feel love is to give love.

I am me

I wish I had a better memory, but I don't.

I often forget even the most important of details and well...that's why I blog.

I know that my random rambles mean nothing to most people.

I don't write for an audience.

I write because it's part of who I am.

It always has been and it will always be.

I write because without written words (or typed, rather), I would go crazy with all the stuff in my head.

I write because it's an addiction. Truly.

I get an itch that only my moving fingers across the keyboard can fix.

I share because this is who I am.

I'm not ashamed to let anyone into the details of my life.

I am an over-achiever and unfortunately, an over-eater.

I am a mother and a wife, a daughter and a grand-daughter.

I hate almost everything 'modern' and I'm kinda old fashioned.

I am a Christian and I'm not afraid to admit it.

I suck at sticking with things.

I give up to easy.

I love the color orange, popcorn and photography.

I am forgiven.

I am loved.

I am a writer, a photographer and sometimes an artist.

I don't claim to be good at any of it.

I am me...

Life

I have the very best friends in the world. Seriously.

And my husband? Well, he's pretty much perfect too.

God, I love my life! <3